Cumbria with Jim - January 2011
I am not functioning at all well for a number of reasons. After Jim’s death I have been very sad and spend a lot of time just moping about. I understand that this is a normal part of grieving and I just have to struggle through it. That is what I am doing.
On Friday there is a memorial service in England and a close friend and I will be lighting candles for Jim in Vienna – in St. Stephen’s Cathedral.
He would have liked that. He was not religious but often visited churches to light candles. After that we will have lunch together and remember a true friend lost. He was due to visit me this weekend.
I am on a long program of trying to get rid of my migraines. Two weeks ago – because my lower dose was having some effect - my Doctor put me on the maximum dose of my anti-migraine drug.
The short to medium effect of this is to put me into a comatose state in the mornings and I do not surface effectively until after lunch. Until then I am less coherent than Muffin and all I really want to do most of the time is sleep.
But I am making progress. I am now having fewer migraines - and they are much less powerful than they were. I am confident that in a few months I will be getting almost no migraines at all. I think it is worth the struggle – but unless you have never had a migraine you will not know what I am talking about. If you have – you will give me you true blessings.
Cate is not here and is only briefly popping in on Saturday before popping out again. We love each other more than the sky and it is difficult for both of us to spend so much time apart – but these things have to happen if we are to live the life we do in Vienna.
The combination of these things means that it is difficult for me to get through the day - let alone blog – so I am going to have to take a break.
Normal service will resume when I get my shit together. In the interim I may post some photos – probably of Ducks